A Working Single Mom

Early on before Lillian was born, her dad and I decided that I would stay at home with Lillian as long as finances allowed me to do so.  At the time I had no idea I would have to go back to work when my little one was four months old. Prayers were heard and I was asked by my church to take a position at the on site childcare facility. Lillian received half price tuition and I was able to help my family financially. After discussing finances and doing some budget cuts I decided it was best for me to return home and concentrate on my own family needs instead of the needs of other peoples children.

I have entered the workforce once again after receiving my degree.  I absolutely LOVE my job with The Center for Family Development.  My number one goal with families is to establish a nurturing bond between a mother and her child.  I completed my internship with this agency while in school and really had no interest in working for them after school was over. I was given a part time position over the summer and when the summer was over I was given a full time job offer to think about. I took some time and thought about the offer and what it would mean for my child and myself and realized The Center would be a perfect spot for to start out at in my career. It is not the highest paying job, but it has many perks.  I have been thankful to be able to bring my daughter to work with me on occasion and be able to flex my time around to spend more time at home with her.

At times I wonder what it would be like to work at one of the higher paying agencies, but I feel that I would not have as much time to strengthen my relationship with my child, which is what parenthood should be.

Hebrews 13:5 Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because, God has said, "Never will I leave you;never will I forsake you."

What I find difficult is coming home and trying to get dinner on the table and cleaned up with no help. Lillian is getting to the point where she wants to help set the table and try to help wash dishes(which is actually very good at).  I feel like I never have time to just relax, because I am doing all the SAHM duties PLUS working 40 hours a week.  I should be used to it, because I do not recall ever having help before with the deployments and going to school.   Maybe by the time Lillian goes to Kindergarten we will have a routine set and it becomes easier!  One would hope!

Fresh Start!

I have been "off the market" for the last eight and a half years. I was a teenager when I decided to become seriously committed to one person, whom I had planned to spend the rest of my life. I was happy and in love and no one could tell me otherwise. Just like any other marriage we had our ups and downs. Certain things do not belong in a marriage and these things made me angry. I turned to my friends and latched heavily on to my faith. We sought counseling and I fought to save my marriage. Things got better for a little while and then they hit rock bottom once again early in 2010. At that point I did not know what more to do.  I prayed even more and searched for answers.  My prayers were painfully answered in Sept 2010 and I knew what I needed to do.

I walked away knowing I gave everything I had to him. I no longer cried, I no longer got angry, and I no longer felt love or hate. I was numb and I knew that walking away was the only thing I could do. Even though 2011 was the a horrible mind boggling year, I made it to the end.

I have learned that gut instincts are real and should not be taken lightly.  I have also learned that God answers prayers and shows you the way in the most unusual ways.

Mark 11:23-24 "Truly believe in what you pray for with no doubt in your heart that it can happen. Only then will you receive what you have prayed for".

Cheers to 2012

2012- A year that will forever be memorable. I have once again decided to blog about life's little adventures as I begin a new journey.  Some topics may be personal and others may offer great amusement. My friends have helped me greatly though my journey thus far and I want to continue to be guided in a more powerful way.

The power of prayer has gotten me where I am today. So many times people shut themselves off from the world around them when they are going through difficult times in their lives. I am guilty of this.  No one besides my family a very few of my closest friends knew anything about the last few years of my life. Even my old blog showed only what I wanted others to see. Life is far from perfect and I no longer want to appear to have it together at all times. Learning happens through experience and as Christians we should ask for help when we need it and offer help when others need it.  We are a family and I want to share my life experience in hopes that   I may receive guidance and encouragement.